Monday, December 17, 2012

A Reflection on Advent

 Part I
                When we had German visitors stay with us, one of them asked to talk with me about what Advent is like in South Sudan.  It got me thinking about what this season means in the cultural sense.
                There is not much of a “pre-Christmas” feeling here.  When we had an end-of-the-school-year party, we blasted Christmas music; it felt absurd.  Some of that feeling is because it was 95° outside instead of 35°, true enough.  But it’s more than that.  To me, the holiday season is about a focus on family, precious time spent together reliving old memories and creating new ones, and appreciation for what we have in life.  And how do we experience these things?  Through family traditions.
               We cut down Christmas trees.  We get out ornaments that send us skipping down memory lane.  We bake gingerbread cookies.  We string bright lights outside our homes and light warm fires within.  We awe children with tales of St. Nicholas, and spend untold hours getting gifts ready for loved ones.  These are the things that spell out “Christmas”… in America.
                In South Sudan, there are no Christmas trees.  There are no ovens.  There is no electricity.  Santa’s reindeer don’t know the way here.  Coal is a valuable resource used for cooking and heat.  There are no shopping malls, and “every kiss” certainly does not “begin with Kay”.  The Christmas feasts to which we are accustomed look a little different here – “breakfast, lunch, and dinner?!  all on the same day?!?” – but the vast majority will not get even that small luxury. 
                So it feels a little different, being here this year.  The Advent season seems less hyped-up, less significant, less holiday-ish.  Almost as though Christmas might be an afterthought that follows “oh hey, today is Tuesday”.  But that feeling is a result of looking only through the lens of Culture.

Part II: 
                 As I (jealously) skimmed over Facebook statuses of those headed to Cape May for Advent Retreats, I got to thinking about what this season means in the religious sense.
                 This year, I appreciate much more than I ever have before the meaning of my parents’ favorite bumper sticker:  Keep ‘Christ’ in ‘Christmas’.  In years past, I was embarrassed by this brazen declaration of religiosity.  I said, “Happy Holidays” to avoid offending.  I set up nativity scenes all around the house, but was not moved to prayer by the absence of the infant Christ.  This year, I am empowered by my faith.  The pendulum has swung the other way.  The carols I sing are about Jesus, not Santa.  I’ve been trying to unwrap my heart for God, not wrap gifts for relatives.
                In a way, Advent here is a lot more work than it has been before.  Here, I must prepare my spirit to welcome God.  That’s much more complicated than preparing a wreath to welcome guests at the front door.  And it’s much easier to clean a house than it is to try to wipe a soul clean.  But that’s the whole point, isn’t it?  That I can’t clean my soul – only He can.  I need Him to come, this infant child who would save the world.
               So it feels a little different, being here this year.  The Advent season seems more purposeful, more significant, more holy.  Almost as though Christmas will provide all the hope necessary to get us through the next 364 days – the hope of the Light of Christ.  I believe it will.  And I will continue to keep that at the very forefront of my mind.  After all, “He is the reason for the season.”

Sunday, December 9, 2012

A Month of Change

The last month has been overwhelmingly busy, which for me is a good thing.  Some very big things have happened here!

Big Event #1: Our Sisters Arrive!
                The first exciting thing was the arrival of our Sisters on November 11th.  Four Visitation Sisters of Don Bosco (VSDBs) were scheduled to come work here in Maridi way back in July.  But they kept getting delayed over bureaucratic red tape in their native India (problems with their passports, I was told).  So when I heard they were actually in the car on their way from Juba (where they’d flown in to), my heart leapt for joy.
I knew I was eager for them to join our community, but what I felt right before their arrival and for the rest of the day took me by surprise and overwhelmed me.  From the moment they stepped out of the car, I LOVED them in a way that seemed to surpassed human love.  The only explanation I can offer is that God was LOVING them directly through my own heart.  LOVING them with a force and authenticity that could only have come from Him.  To be a vessel for such indescribably powerful emotion was … unreal.  I do not understand why God keeps allowing me, keeps choosing me, to have these experiences, but I gratefully yearn for more.
The Sisters’ arrival was intense.  Their car stopped a few hundred yards before the house so they could take part in the parade – yes, parade – that welcomed them.  I thought I was overwhelmed when 20 children greeted me uppon my arrival!  The next day, we had a school mass of epic proportions.  600 people jammed into (and sat outside of) our small church, each adding something spirited to the service.  The villagers had asked what they could offer to the Sisters, and were told food was a good option.  I think China could have fed its people for 3 weeks with what was laid at the Sisters’ feet.  The rest of the day, they sat as Distinguished Guests on the platform of the school, not unlike queens lovingly surveying their people, as everyone in Manguo Parish honored them with songs, tribal dances, speeches, and a girls’ football game.  I was so happy when they joined in on one of the dances.  It set a great tone for how awesome they’d be to have here.
I moved into the brand new convent with them and got re-settled for the third (and hopefully final) time in South Sudan.  (Momentary pause: I live in a ‘convent’.  How cool does that sound?!?)  In the weeks since, I have enjoyed every second I’ve gotten to spend with them, and appreciate them more with each passing day.  They are so spirited, so lively, so holy, kind, nurturing, genuine, exuberant, motherly, humble, hysterical… the list goes on ad infinitum.  They brighten my world so much with their presence.  I almost can’t imagine what life was like before they came.  And it’s nice for the women to outnumber the men, too J.


The Sisters get adorned with African garb.

Big Event #2: We Inaugurate Our New Hospital!
                The Salesian presence has only been here a couple of years, but in that short time they’ve built a church, a school, a convent, AND a gorgeous (and huge) Health Center.  We held a ceremonial mass to bless it on November 20th.  A lot of work went into organizing such a huge event, and thankfully it all came together perfectly.  The Bishop presided over the mass along with our priests.  The ECS Bishop took part as well, showing strong support and cooperation between our faiths (ECS = Episcopal Church of Sudan, the other Christian denomination prevalent here). Nearly 100 of our children received sacraments, 22 of whom were anointed - which means they came from the ECS Church into our Catholic faith.  (The two faiths are very similar, but the biggest difference is a crucial one:  Protestants believe that the Eucharist symbolizes the Body of Christ, which he gave the 12 Apostles at The Last Supper.  Catholics believe that once a priest blesses it, it literally becomes the Body of Christ.)
The guest list for the event included the Acting Commissioner of Maridi, Ministers of the Interior, Education, and Health, and the Governor of our state, among others.  It was video and audio taped for television, radio, and print news.  It was (as one would imagine) a very – BIG – deal.  And I got to sit front-row, in the best seat, and play photographer for our community.  I got to be a real part of something monumental.  It was an extremely humbling experience.
                The Minister of Health said that South Sudan has the worst healthcare of any country in the world, and that our state has the worst healthcare in South Sudan.  It made me realize how truly vital our hospital will be in bettering the lives of the local people.  Made me realize how much God is blessing us with the ability to make an impact on this growing country.  And I got to witness its very beginnings.  Again, so deeply humbling.  Then during his speech, shocking us all, the Governor handed one of his cabinet members an order to grant the Salesians with more land (“within 7 days”) to continue furthering our mission here.  We are already building a great Hall next to the hospital, and our next project (with the new land) will be either a secondary school or a technical school so that our students can continue their education with us.  We have the support of the government, we have the support of the people, and  most importantly, we have the support of Our Heavenly Father.  What an amazing blessing to be an SLM here in Maridi at a time like this!



The bishop blessed my BEDROOM!
Talk about a once-in-a-lifetime experience :)
The Bishop delivers his homily underneath a banner
that reminds us of our mission.

















Big Event #3: Our New Brother Comes!
                Bro. Julius joined us from the Democratic Republic of the Congo about a week ago.  He hit the ground running, and his dedication to the boys was clear from Day 1.  Except when he is sleeping or eating, he is with the children (and sometimes he skips the eating).  He's already coaching football for both the "big boys" and the "medium-sized boys" and wants to assistant-coach my girls' team as well.  He brought with him a new ball and even orange cones!  Together, we will build great teams!  But much more importantly, seeing how he interacts with the children, I have already learned so much.  Each evening as I journal, some new inspired insight hits me, some positive, others challenging.  In my time in Africa, I have grown as a person every single day because of the amazing people I am surrounded by.  But this Brother, I think, will be a particularly significant person for me to follow.  I can’t yet describe the effect observing him has had on me, but I feel something stirring within me (the Holy Spirit?) that is both inspiring and peaceful.

Other Happenings:
The End of School:
                The end of the school year came fast and furious, and I was put in charge of organizing and typing all the exams.  I got to revisit something I learned at Orientation:  “Even when you are not directly interacting with a child, you are directly impacting and bettering the life of a child.”  Keeping this in mind made me grateful for being able to do my work.  A wise friend once taught me to replace the phrase "I have to" with "I get to".  Very quickly, the one-word-change shifts perspective on everything!  (Try it.  Seriously.)  I will admit, frustration still got the best of me a few times, but hey, it’s “progress not perfection” right?  And it humbled me so much every time I got another exam, handwritten by a teacher on sometimes-already-used paper.  The teachers themselves, the professionals, have no computers, no way to create a simple test for their students.  And here I am with my own laptop and the skills to use it efficiently.  How many synonyms for “blessed” are there?  How many ways are there of saying “thank you God! But why me?"

Visitors:
                We’ve had quite the influx of visitors recently.  Salesians moving around the country have come to spend time with us, sometimes for a few days, sometimes just a few moments.  When they are here, they are family.  And I feel it just like that, so happy they’ve come.  So blessed to be a stop on their journeys.  There is a twinge of the inner joy of family present during those times.  I have felt this way with my beloved Marianist family as well.  Maybe this is how God created us all, meant to be intimately connected with one another, meant to truly appreciate the value of each person who crosses our path.  Maybe I feel this way when I am with religious orders because I’m closest to God here, because my spirit is more open to His graces.  One day, I hope I can harness this Love with/for everyone I meet.
  
Humanitarian Efforts:
                We had some visitors from Germany whose organization sponsored renovations on the school and who were looking into a possible partnership between our schools/students.  It’s hard to believe I am on the ground seeing the receiving end of humanitarian efforts.   More poignantly, for one day I looked at Maridi as they did, with fresh eyes, hungry to take in all that is Africa.  It made me appreciate how blessed I am to be living this life.  They only stayed 36 hours – I get to stay a year.  This has been my dream for as long as I can remember, and I get to live it every single day.  Their stay also showed me that I have come to understand this culture more than I’d realized.  I still have a loooong way to go, but I feel… like I'm starting to belong.  And not just in the “God wants me here” sense (I’ve had that from Day 1);  in the sense of “this really is my home, and I am responsible for it”.

All-in-all, this past month has been a lot of things.  But what has struck me most deeply and most often is a profound sense of humility, penetrating all the way through my soul.